February 16, 2012
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1 Perfect day.
2 Every now and again, we have perfect days.
3 They are few and far between.
4 Yesterday that happened.
5 After I finished writing the DN, I tried getting to sleep.
6 I couldn't.
7 Normally I can, but for some reason or other, I lay awake the remainder of the evening and morning fretting.
8 I guess we all do it on occasion.
9 My philosophy about insomnia is that it often occurs as a result of healthy, alternative habits, and not necessarily from worry.
10 Ben Franklin said, "Early to bed and early to rise makes a man healthy, wealthy, and wise." It takes a lifetime of worry to realize that it is sage advice.
11 My insomnia is actually a planned event. By the time I awaken at 3 a.m. I have already bagged five or six hours of sleep. My philosophy is this: I cannot control things in the middle of the night. I cannot allow normal life stresses to keep me awake, because I can do nothing during the wee hours.
12 The most intelligent approach is to have a mantra that will put me back to sleep.
13 My mantra used to be quite simple. It was this: "Ommmmmmmmmmm..."
14 Cliché, I know, but it always worked.
15 Now it is this: "Sleeeeeep."
16 I learned in recent years to write the DN the second I awaken, knowing full well that I am sacrificing my worrying with putting this stuff up.
17 Works, in most cases.
18 Yesterday, not.
19 That's the downside of this.
20 I had a lot to worry about yesterday, none of which I care to share.
21 Grades were due yesterday. I knew that, and I also knew the pressure that rides along with that one.
22 So yeah, that kept me up. So did every mild pressure, and all else that we all stress about on a daily basis.
23 It was just one of those things.
24 Eventually, yesterday turned into a perfect day, even though I had remained awake from 2:30 a.m. until 9 p.m.
25 Nuts.
26 Amazingly, everything turned around.
27 I finished my grades in no time. That's what should have happened, because I worked hard to make that happen.
28 A meeting got canceled.
29 Always a pleasure.
30 I had a chance to enjoy the choreography of Grease, the music, and a grand moment when I sat in the house and closed my eyes while our accompanyiest practiced in the wings.
31 Sitting there I found myself sitting in every theater I've ever been in. Shades of drama entered my being. I heard the roar of the greasepaint; I appreciated the smell of the crowd.
32 I napped lightly while delightful piano music came off stage right.
33 I awakened and checked out the ellipsoids and fresnels. I dreamed the lighting design. I remembered doing lights for my daughters' dances. I remembered Godspell, and Wizard, and the Midsummers. I thought of all the shows, which to me were always one huge show. Grease is officially a part of that thought process.
24 I didn't give the canceled meeting a thought.
25 I awakened, and found that I had time to practice a song from the show.
26 I have been cast in Grease, and it's an awesome cameo.
27 Every now and again we all have a catharsis. A catharsis is a positive nervous breakdown.
28 I'm pretty sure that's what happened yesterday.
29 I had a day where everything went right, and I almost didn't know what to do about it.
30 Paul Simon wrote a song years ago called Something So Right. It's theme was this: we don't know what to do with ourselves when everything suddenly goes right for us.
31 Simon's song is brilliant. It has this line, just so you know: "I can't get used to something so right, something so right."
32 I had suddenly found myself with time on my hands. I sat in the audience as I have so many times before. I listened to piano music, and a distant sax. I closed my eyes and fell into a wonderful peace.
33 I worked hard all year, and finally had a moment.
34 Reflection.
35 Yeah, the Disney one.
36 It isn't important if you are a girl, a boy, or an Old Brown Shoe.
37 What's important is when any of us can arrive at a moment like that. They are few and far between, but they happen.
38 Perfect day.
39 I stopped the world.
40 You can too. Jerry Garcia then entered my thoughts.
41 Oh well the touch of grey, kinda suits you anyway.
41 That is all I have to say.
42 It's all right. I will get by.
43 We will get by.
44 Peace.
~H~
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