Month: November 2009



  • The Daily News

    1  I went out to my garage for the first time this Fall, and found my way to my work bench.

    2  If that sounds a tad strange, it isn't. Really.

    3  This time of the year, I'm much more of a computer guy than an I'll-Fix-The-Drainpipes guy.

    4   I'm traditionally depressed and never know why this time of the year, and wish to do nothing more than throw a blanket over me head and sleep.

    5   This year, however, is completely different.  I was depressed for a coupla weeks, and that was about it. So last night I thought I might just go out to my workbench to get inspired on a project. Nothing huge, but when you have the day off, you think of all SORTS of cool projects to create.

    6    The challenge is that I haven't been great at ANY of this stuff at home, because I have always spent the lion's share of my skills building sets and making shows look alive and real. I'm not quite as handy around the house.

    7    So I went out to my garage last night and moved to my workbench. The thing is, it was not really a workbench at all. To my left stood this picture of me standing on a precipice overlooking Emerald Bay up at Lake Tahoe. My sister Linda took the pic, and then gave it to me one Christmas. It's on my workbench, and is just me, a hat, sunglasses, and blue water. I love the picture, actually, and there are very few pictures of myself that I like.

    8   The middle wall of my work bench is actually a glorified hat rack. I have more hats than most people on the planet, so I won't go there. Let's just say that where most people hang their tools, I hang my hats. I have a few tools museumed around the pegboard, but make now mistake: it IS a hat rack, for very very very old hats!

    9   To the right is my terrifying electric mitre saw, which could chop off a fencepost with one quick pull.

    10  So far, it's pretty much done nothing more than to take up a key spot on my work bench. It is there for one reason only: should another manly man enter my garage, I could explain away the hats in a quick swoop, with a cold beer and a snappy smile, and then re-direct to that rather intimidating saw.

    11  If any good ol' boy walks into my garage, I'm tanned, rested, and ready. I usually will take the lout over to my bench, and then point at my mean-ass mitre saw and tell him how many different uses one could make for such an invention.

    12   Once the focus is on the saw, the hat rack is swiftly forgotten.

    13   It's just that my workbench is really a set piece, and not as functional as it should be.
     
    14   I laughed though when I saw all those hats hanging out there. They actually look pretty snazzy! I have loved hats my whole life, and wore them both in high school and in college. All sorts of different hats.

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    15   Kinda funny that different people like different things. I always had a hankerin' for a cool hat and a cooler tie.
     
    16   Just cool stuff. Not necessarily newsworthy, like Aerosmith looking for a new lead singer, but just a bit of a lark.
     
    17   Moving on: I went to The Gym again yesterday morning and saw only one Turtle standing in the corner. He looked sort of like the the Cat in the Hat, with this very friendly smile. I looked up and sprayed water, turned and shot away.
     
    18   Nice fellow.Big dumb grin.
     
    19   I'll get off the subject really quickly, but I had to throw in that I went to The Gym three times yesterday, doing the full 30 laps each time. That comes to a grand total of eight trips in ten days!
     
    20   I'd love to say that was a brag, but it really sort of surprised me. I have blown my last effort at getting into better shape out of the water, if you'll excuse the pun. I last did this right after the Class of '05 graduated. I needed something to move swiftly forward with life, and that worked, at least for a while. 
     
    21  At no point, however, did I do quite that much in my first week.
     
    22  I want it to become a slight addiction, and so I'm making it fun!
     
    23  I also think that publicly stating these things keeps not only me going, but might inspire others. I mean, if an Old Brown Shoe can do it, anyone can do it.
     
    24  Enough of that though. I'm constantly afraid that I'll miss a day and fall off, and it is also the Holiday Season, officially, when it is nearly impossible to pass all the wonderful cookies, candies, and other sweets that begin almost immediately.
     
    25  Anyway, my entire body is buzzing and twitching, but it all feels really good.
     
    26  Sadly, it won't probably show for at least a coupla weeks, so I'm just going to enjoy the entire way my lifestyle has cheered me up and brought a tremendous stability to things.
     
    27  My daughter Nicoley had a theory about my sudden sadness the past few weeks. She mentioned that I never really had a chance to deal with my Mom's passing in May, that we sort of rushed into the details of the funeral and subsequent celebration, and moved on almost too quickly.
     
    28  Not a bad theory, and when the weather changed, and November approached, it certainly reminded me of how much time she spent in the hospital during the Holidays last year.
     
    29  And a little over a week before Christmas, she went in for an extended stay, and we actually brought her home on Christmas Day.
     
    30  So maybe, little Nicoley. Maybe you're right on the money.
     
    31  Well, regardless, I was pretty depressed the past few weeks, going a bit up and then a bit down, and sometimes acting a tad irrationally. The answer, in my mind, was to change direction completely, look up close friends, join a gym, and every time I would start to get depressed, to stay active and involved with people.I did all that and then some in the past week. Amazing results!
     
    32  So far, it's working WAY better than I would have ever imagined! My daughter Caitlin said that very much of depression is chemical in nature, and that they even have pills to neutralize that.
     
    33  Again, maybe so, but right now, exercise, restful sleep, friends, and family have been utterly astounding. I have felt a strong sense of missing people in the past month, so maybe Nicole's theory holds true.
     
    34  I think a lot of people feel this way when the weather starts changing, right at the onlsaught of Winter. It makes sense.
     
    35   It also makes sense that doing something about it might help make things better.
     
    36   So far, it's been working.
     
    37    I would once again like to thank everybody who helped me with nice e-mails, rides, talks, and laughs. Means a lot.
     
    38    And to anyone else going through stuff like this, try putting the sadness behind and getting in touch with cool friends for some fun laughs. Go for a walk, and eat more healthily. Stay active and get lots of rest. Oh, and this might sound cliche', but drink lots of water.
     
    39  Hopefully this will help someone else out.
     
    40  Meanwhile, things are looking up in a grand way. I'm looking forward to the coming months and the remainder of the Holidays.
     
    41  Give someone a hug today, or send me a really huge one lol! AnywayZ...
     
    42   I love you all, everything.
     
    43   Peace.

    ~H~

    a cool guy 1 cool guy

        bharrington@xanga.com













  • We have this day off. In this edition of the DN, we have an explanation. It might not be what you like.

    Too bad.

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    The Daily News

    1   I love this time of year.

    2   Don't know why, really.

    3   Maybe it's because I always begin re-establishing relationships that are clearly meaningful to me.

    4   Ah, shettttup lol!

    5   For example, the other day I received an e-mail from me goodly friend and confidant Kenny Ponticelli. Nothin' deep, just a nice update, with a whole lot of soul. Second best guy in my life next to me own Dad. It could even be a tie.

    6   I took off to Henry's on Monday with Tracy Wolcott, a genius extraordinare, and we laughed and talked well into the evening. We finally had to get home just sose we could return to the classroom and do whatever it is we do.

    7   We had a GREAT conversation about YB, and about how we both try to modify our lessons so that they are closer to perfect each and every year.

    8   If I may, two legends.

    9   Interesting that we BOTH looked at our traditional lessons with nothing but ideas for improving.

    10  After all that, one of my favorite students from last year visited me directly after school yesterday. We talked for an hour about everything and nothing, and I wound up realizing how amazing my classes went last year, better than any time in my career.

    11  Life sometimes intervenes.

    12  Yesterday, the immortal Patty Gassman and I met at the Macaroni Grill to talk about directing plays and such. To those out there who get the e-mail version of the
    DN, I DO know how to spell the word "Macaroni". I accidentally put an "o" after the "c" yesterday and never caught it until after I had mailed it off. So it goes.

    13  Patty was THE eminently graceful director at Piedmont Hills for years and years.

    14  We instantly enjoyed exchanging stories of past shows, and present accomplishments.

    15   Two extreme veterans of play directing, and it was every bit as good as anyone could imagine.

    16   Patty was my own school's drama director's teacher and mentor. She's as awesome as it gets, sorta like Kenny and Tracy. Again, on the e-mail, I left out the words "drama director". I was pretty sleepy when I wrote this last night! I usually proofread my DN's several times before launching, but didn't. And I didn't send out any corrections, which I usually do, so if you read last night's DN already, you may have noticed a coupla gaping goofs. Happens. AnywayZ...

    17   So in three days, I've been honored to have spent some valuable time with my Dad, Tracy, Kenny, AND Patty, and that's only the beginning.

    18   One thing about getting older is that as we all lumber down the road, the greatest survivors keep moving forward and up, never satisfied with the status quo.

    19   Ken has gotten married, has two beautiful children, a lovely, intelligent wife, and literally hundreds of students under his direction at Indy.

    20  Tracy and I discussed ways of getting better with each and every lesson, which is pretty unique for a coupla veterans, both of whom could clearly rest on our laurels, but neither of whom would ever consider it.

    21  And Patty had come out of her early retirement to teach at Piedmont for the day. She blew those students away with a lesson about knowing those around you, and about taking nothing for granted.

    22  That led me to writing last night's DN, which I strongly considered not doing, but after talking with those Hall-of-Famers, decided to share with the world, even if I did get a tad languid with the editing.

    23  To say that I love those people would be an understatement. We're talking about some of the finest teachers in the business, each of whom knows how to go in there and not only teach, but blow the roof off the joint.

    24   I'm proud to be spending time this week with some of the greatest teachers in the business. I have reconsidered many of my upcoming lessons this week in hopes that I could bring all of that soul into my lessons.

    25   So I salute my amazingly esteemed colleagues: Ken Ponticelli, my best friend on this planet next to my Dad, Tracy Wolcott, the best teacher in the galaxy, and Patty Gassman, a leader and one of the strongest and most soulful directors walking around.

    26  Three Hall-of-Famers in my eyes. I felt as though if it were baseball, I woulda been in the presence of Babe Ruth, Willie Mays, and Jackie Robinson. Truly. Add my Dad to that mix, and you might see the instant strength and vitality that has been happening all around me for the past week.

    27  After having gone through two weeks of absolute angst, the entrance into my life by these Masters of the Game can't be understated. In the history of our lives, these were true inspirations. These people are all my own personal heroes. They not only survived years of teaching, but rather than hanging on, all three kept thinking of ways to improve and turn their work into classic art.

    28  The very fact that I may stroll among these heroic gods is an honor beyond words.

    29   To everything there is a season.

    30   And a time to every purpose, under Heaven.

    31   Moving on: Tomorrow is Veteran's Day. I've stopped trying to convince the world that it was originally Armistice Day, meaning that it was on the 11th minute of the 11th hour of the 11th day of the 11th month in 1918 that all war on Earth stopped, and that peace was establised. It morphed into the entirely different Veteran's Day.

    32   Don't get me wrong. I have nothing against giving a day up to our war veterans, but I NEVER liked that they removed the idea of peace and brought in this salute, which should have had its own day.

    33  Kurt Vonnegut, Jr. had a wonderful piece about this in his hilariously poignant Breakfast of Champions. It was in the introduction to the work, and included the following sentiments. I include some comments from my DN of November 11, 2006:

    12 Note: Vonnegut's reference to 1922 was a reference to his own birthday, and not an historical inaccuracy. Duly delivered. 

    13  Here is the remainder of his lovely words about Armistice Day, repeated again especially for the DN readership. Hope you appreciate these amazing words:

    So this book is a sidewalk strewn with junk, trash which I throw over my shoulders as I travel in time to November eleventh, nineteen hundred and twenty-two.

    I will come to a time in my backwards trip when November eleventh, accidentally my birthday, was a sacred day called Armistice Day. When I was a boy, all the people of all the nations which had fought in the First World War were silent during the eleventh minute of the eleventh hour of Armistice Day, which was the eleventh day of the eleventh month.

    It was during that minute in nineteen hundred and eighteen, that millions upon millions of human beings stopped butchering one and another. I have talked to old men who were on battlefields during that minute. They have told me in one way or another that the sudden silence was the voice of God. So we still have among us some men who can remember when God spoke clearly to mankind.

    Armistice Day has become Veterans' Day. Armistice Day was sacred. Veterans' day is not.

    So I will throw Veterans' Day over my shoulder. Armistice Day I will keep. I don't want to throw away any sacred things.

    What else is sacred? Oh, Romeo and Juliet,  for instance.

    And all music is.

    34  Thank you Mr. Vonnegut.  Thank you Ponch, Tracy, and Patty.

    35   Have a great day everybody.

    36   Oh yes, and peace.

    ~H~

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    The Daily News

    1  I've been living among the Turtles for the past week.

    2  It was exactly a week ago today that I jumped into The Pond and began swimming once more. Actually, it was in the cloudy waters of The Gym. But Turtles nonetheless.

    3  In the past week, I made it to The Gym five days out of the past eight (Monday to Monday).  Not what my original intention was, but clearly better than the prior week.

    4  The goal: to get in amazing shape and to get healthy, strong, and handsome.Two outta three ain't bad though.

    5  I could always get healthy later.

    6  My mode: the large pool in The Gym. Hereafter the pool shall be referred to as the Pond. 

    7  The challenge: swimming amid the many Turtles that seem to find their way into the Pond.

    8   Well, here is the report of some of the experiences. First off, once you have gone to The Gym, you aren't allowed to call it anything but The Gym, as though everybody and his brother goes to one gym only, at least grammatically. Like everybody goes to the same Gym, The Gym.

    9   You go on Facebook or something, and everybody seems to be going  to The Gym.

    10  Must be quite a place. I think I found it, but I don't see all those people there when I go.

    11  Anyway, my poison is swimming thirty laps each time, a lap being down and back.

    12  The trouble is, the water is foggy for Gawd knows what reason, and I have to wear goggles to protect my eyes.

    13   I look not unlike a bulgy-eyed, frog-faced snapping turtle, except that I can swim smooth and straight, which the other Turtles in the water can't.

    14   But the water is so murky that I can't see some renegade Turtle suddenly all up upon me in my lane.

    15   The Turtles in The Gym flap their arms all sorts of directions, with no concept of a standard crawl stroke. You just suddenly look up and a huge shadow appears before your eyes, and then paddles off to the other lane, with no concept of territory.

    16  At the end of each stretch, I pop out of the water, take a breath, and glide back in the other direction.

    17  There is usually a Turtle resting in the corner. The other night, one looked like a mean hombre, a snapping turtle from the Northern Caribbean, to be sure. He smelled of Cuban cigars and his mustache etched out two small triangles. He never snapped, but just glared at me like he was going to snap. I popped my head back underwater and kicked the side to get away.

    18  A little later, two Disney Hippos plopped into the water, creating massive bubbles right in front of my startled face. I zipped between them continuing with my laps.

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    19  As I moved swiftly away from the Hippos, the same Turtles that suddenly appeared, suddenly appeared AGAIN in my lane, causing me to zip between them. Being Turtles, they had no idea of Pond etiquette, and continued on their merry ways, hands flying in every direction, chins riding the crest of waves created by both themselves and their Hippo counterparts.

    20  What I WANT, of course, is a lane in which I could simply swim my thirty laps, and get into my street clothes before anyone looks at me. My dream is not to have to worry about that, but with a Pond full of Turtles and Hippos, it's quite a challenge to do straight down and back laps.

    21  Every now and again I can slip across The Pond to a fast lane. It sometimes is empty, but the empty doesn't last, as Sentinels post themselves at either end, and just stand still in the water, as though they were guarding the sides from Invaders.

    22  It isn't too bad, since there are no Turtles, but it gets tough to move to the wall.

    23   At each end of the Pond, there is a wall with a Cross on it. I often shoot through the water and tap the Cross, a knightly procedure that I do each time. I tap it with my right hand, as a Sign of Reverence.

    24   Sometimes the Hippos bring younger Hippos into the water and block the Cross. I usually manage to do some sort of fancy move to get my right hand to touch the Middle of the Cross.

    25  Each 11th lap, I go on my back and do an elementary back stroke, where I coast and cool down. I won't do it if I see any evidence of Turtles or Hippos. I'll swim right through and not cool down.

    26  On days like yesterday, when the Pond had other serious swimmers, I get to enjoy lanes all by myself. It's wonderful when that happens, because everything is divided in threes: the first third having to do with my past, and pulling any stresses from the past right behind. The second third is all about the present, and what needs to be done right now, and the third third, if you will is all about plans for the future.

    27  Uninterrupted by Turtles and Hippos, the Pond becomes joy personified, where I swim, pull, splash, breathe, and cruise in an orgy of splashing and bubbles. It absolutely rocks my world, knowing that if I keep going I will eventually turn into a Handsome Prince.

    28   Oh, I'm quite certain it will eventually work, and despite all the challenges, we swimmers have learned to live peacefully with the Turtles and the Hippos.

    29   I'm so excited!

    30   Welp, that's about it. The World of The Gym, and all the interesting creatures that hang there. There are other sinewy creatures slipping into the spa, as well as the Buddhas baking in the sauna, but that's for another day.

    31   Right now, I'm sleeping better and loving life.

    32   Enjoy your day today. I slept seven hours last night, and awakened refreshed and renewed. Nice to awaken rested, and with a new life.

    33   Hope you live life; love life today.

    34   Peace.

     

    ~H~

     

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  • The Daily News

    1   Meet my Dad.

    2   The guy is a knight.

    3   For the past several years he has been by my Mom's side as she went through all sorts of procedures for all sorts of different things. My Mom was paralyzed the last seven years of her life, and my Dad was with her constantly, loving, helping, and being her rock. He never complained, and both of them have always seen the glass half full.

    4  When I was around five or six, he crashed in an small plane in the Sierra. The pilot and co-pilot were killed in the crash, but my Dad and his friend lived. It crushed his feet and cracked his ribs, but he walked away. I used to draw crayon airplanes all the time at school. It was always a sunny day, with a blue stripe at the top of the page indicating sky, a bright yellow sun, and me in a garden with lots of flowers. The teachers were worried, but really, once Mom told me Dad was okay, I used to play and not think about it too much. I saw him in the hospital and he looked a little scratched, but fine with his two big old casts. Since then, he has lived through a lot.

    5  He has had all sorts of cancers and has been carved from head to toe, but he is still strong, good, and funny!

    6  Around eight years ago, while riding a moped in Tahoe, he was hit by a car and raced to the hospital. After worrying about him all morning, he came walking out. He threw his jacket over his shoulder and said, "Let's get the Hell outta here. And can you stop by the liquor store? I gotta buy a six-pack!"

    7   He has been in and out of the hospital for the past few years as well. He has some goofy stomach thing that has had several different procedures, so we always have to bring him in.

    8  Once, while he was talking to me in the hospital, he accidentally pressed the nurse's button. In flew this really cute nurse who said, "Did you need something, Mr. Harrington?"

    9  Dad looked up, gave a puppy-dog look, and said, "Love?"

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    10  Haha! Apple. Tree.

    11  Anyway, when I was a kid, he used to take me to all the Forty Niner games, and each week we'd watch the away games together, along with all the other games. We still watch lots of games together, but it has been years since the two of us actually sat at a game.

    12  Yesterday that happened, once again. We can always talk about everything and nothing, so we got out there early, tailgated with some friends, and went inside. My best friend from childhood sat on my right, and my Dad sat on my left, almost the same exact location we all were in when we saw "The Catch" happen. We were all there, Niner fans since birth.

    13  The sun was shone, the place was ready to go, and we enjoyed the entire day, even though the Niners went into the tank late in the game. When the game finally got out of reach, my Dad, who had been reading the scores of other games on the scoreboard, said, "I thought the Raiders weren't playing today."

    14   Keeping my eyes on the field, I said rather matter-of-factly, "No, they aren't. They have a bye."

    15   His reply?  "No they don't. They're down on the field!"

    16   The Raiders, if you don't know, are absolutely pathetic this year, with all due respect to the Raiders' fans.

    17   Great comment.

    18   He has had great comments his whole life, subtle, polite and cool.

    19   Anyway, what a great day, even if the Niners lost. It was beautifully fun to see my friend Nick as well. He is ALSO pretty funny, and has always been a great guy. He told this joke yesterday:

    Nick.  Why do women wear makeup and perfume?

    Me.    I don't know. Why?

    Nick.  Because they're ugly and they smell.

    20   Ya gotta love it.

    21   All in all, this will be a memory for me. Well, my sort of memory. I really love simple memories. I don't always have to have Disneyland memories, or going places and having huge fun memories. Those are always fun, of course. I simple memories, like just riding to the ballpark with my Dad in the TOOOOOONDRA, or spending a Sunday with just him and me sitting in comfortable chairs watching football, talking about everything and nothing. Those are always the best to me.

    22  With my head all out of sorts the past two weeks, this was an instant antidote.

    23   I got home and felt full strength once more, and smiled.

    24   Amazingly clear headed and completely back to normal strength, although I didn't get to the gym last night. I fully intend to go later today however, so that I can continue to strengthen.

    25  You have to work out both physically and mentally anyway.

    26  Seeing my Dad and my best friend from childhood was a great step towards clarity and alertness, both of which have managed to dodge me for the past few weeks. Feels great, and more importantly, normal.

    27  I even had the DN written last night at 8:30 p.m., arguably my all-time record!

    28  So it's good times, laughs, and I'm guessing I may even be able to fight off insomnia, since when this was being written, I was at around 8:30 last night.

    29  And so I'll leave today's DN at that. I was going to go into some of the hilarities of working out each day, but that may have to wait until tomorrow's DN.

    30  I'm smiling, so that's a good place to tell everyone out there thanks for the e-mails and nice thoughts; things are WAY righted now,  and I want to wish you a great day today, and once again say, "Thanks."

    31  Now get out there and fly low; it's Monday!

    32   Peace.

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    ~H~

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     The Daily News

    "Hey, don't make fun of Albert Finney!"edition.

    Haha.

    1   Buncha bananaheads. I hear laughter bouncing off the walls. I'm not sure as to what it all means.

    2   Ah, you know who you is.

    3   Mmmmmm. Moroccan oil.

    4   ; )

    5    Hehe.  = )  <---clearly a DN shout out to an honest  and sincere friend. Meanwhile...

    6    I hate the Yankees.

    7    M'bad. I don't ever mean to reveal my true feelings, as you all obviously must know.

     8   Still, I hate the Yankees. That team was bought, pure and simple.

    9    Ah, I'm probably sour grapes.

    10   Yep.

    11   No doubt about it.

    12   Moving on, Part 1: Thought I'd change it fast. After all, I'm a teacher, and for whatever reason in life, we are doomed to follow rules nobody else in the entire universe must follow.

    13   Ah, vell.

    14   I've always felt that nearly any time that people wish to put restrictions of others' freedom, it's a rule that is simply prejudice. Teachers are always expected to play by a different set of rules. I clearly never do, and never will.

    15   Seriously.

    16   Teachers are expected to give up at least twelve of the first thirteen original Bill of Rights.

    17   Some clarity? Okay, fine. This Old Brown Shoe has managed to remain as human as possible, and to jump in and enjoy, love, worry, hate, and encourage everybody, the same rights as every other citizen in the Western world.

    18   I personally refuse, and I do think most teachers would agree, to put a muzzle on and allow stupidity and nonsense to enter the mainstream.

    19   We just ain't cut like that.

    20   Yeesh.

    21   Just thought I'd air that out.

    22    Moving on: Know what annoys me?

    23    People.

    24    Know what I LOVE?

    25    People.

    26    The trouble with people is that they tend to see everything immediately from their own perspectives, and seldom take time to consider the feelings of others.

    27    I don't leave myself out in that equation. I too am quite guilty on that count, but who isn't? We are, all of us, above and beyond all sensitivity, all about ourselves.

    28    Yet we don't consider the feelings of others SO often that it is clearly something worth not only mentioning, but calling out. And I put my hand up as one of the first guilty parties. How critically mean we can be, often without even knowing that we are doing it.

    29   Trouble is, we tend to take others for granted. And when they go through their own idiocies, we tend to distance, in what we think is elegant fashion. They may need a moment, or maybe even a day, or even a quick response to a simple e-mail, or twitter, or whatever.

    30   Just a quick word of advice, for that it's worth: if that person is just a normal person in your life, give them an answer; give them some sort of quick response. It takes milliseconds to answer and it brings warmth and certainty into someone's day. They chose YOU as a person meaningful enough in their lives to give a "holla". Dude. It takes twelve seconds to "holla" back. wtf? Just do it. It's easy for you, and may mean the entire universe to them.  

    31   Ignoring people altogether is hurtful and insulting. Think about it. Straight up. Mean. I've been guilty of this, because I know that the people I can truly depend on are a safe bet. And yet I personally am guilty of being too busy, or too certain that I can always catch them later. And often, I don't. It is a simple gesture to acknowledge people. It is always too easy to blow them off. Give a wink, a smile, or a thumbs up. Everyone is insecure to an extent, so we all need to take the extra minute to be at least polite. I failed on that one last year when I had got my 15 units. Lost a best friend from childhood in the process. So give it all a careful thought.

    32   I just thought I'd throw that one out there, because we are SO immersed in technology these days that we forget some basic common courtesies.

    33   One of the most beautiful things about my Mom is that she always felt that there was nothing common about common courtesy.

    34   <sigh>

    35   I miss my Mom. <tear>

    36   As I miss common courtesy.

    37   Moving on, Part the Second: Well, I have now officially been to the gym twice this week. Might not sound like much, but each day was a grueling full hour of intense swimming.

    38   It's funny too, because I'm pretty certain that I can actually DO this, because I have done it in the past. The importance was following through with a second trip to the gym, a public announcement, a private announcement to the people closest to me, and then a plan.

    39   The plan is quite simple, and the last time I used it, it worked famously. It's a transferable skill.

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     The first ten full laps I would spend ridding myself of the past, "pulling water" behind me. I wouldn't completely throw things behind, but things that I felt were now destructive, or thoughts that while sentimental, might now be destructive, right behind, so that I could physically see them bubble and splash with each dig.

    40   The second ten laps would be an immediate plan for the next three days. If the old sentimental things would try to enter, I would instantly consider them now irrelevant, and make a list of things that could physically happen in the next three days.

    41   Yesterday, for example, I pulled all the angst of the past month behind, and there was plenty. During the next ten laps, I devised a plan to string my wonderful guitar, Annabel, sort papers alphabetically, and write the DN. Three pretty practical and doable things. I did all three last night.

    42   On my third series of laps, each of which was a full down-and-back in a long pool lane, I would plan what I intended to do to make my life better in the next few weeks, and in the next few years. It became instantly clear, and I've already devised a schedule as a result of the swim.

    43    Three simple things: lose the pain of the past, make a plan for the immediate present, and make a doable plan for the future. In one hour of swimming, I would keep my mind off the toughness of pulling major water for an hour, and instead working on the physical and mental demands that might make for a healthier future.

    44   In my next DN, I intend to give a blow-by-blow of the hilarity of trying to nail those three goals. But for right now, I thought I'd pass this strategy on to anyone trying to make things better for themselves via gym. Most could start as early as tonight.

    45   A LOT of our tension and misery is self-inflicted. A disciplined regimen, both physical and mental, could do remarkable things to allow one to awaken to a much more stable, strong, and ultimately happy go of it.

    46   It worked my first night out, so here's hoping I might be able to offer a bit of hope to others. I felt completely empowered, strong, and ready to rock by the time I got hom, and did indeed string my guitar, alphabetize student papers, and write last night's DN.

    47   I even avoided Facebook for a stretch, because there's a lot of the past lingering there. Stringing my guitar took the place of sighing about things that won't change. Alphabetizing student papers gave me a jump on a deadline that will become super-intense within three weeks, and writing the DN is always a much longer chore than most might realize.

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    48  I also thought that anyone reading this could adapt the principles to their own lives, and quite quickly do some positive lifestyle adjustments.

    49   Well, that's about it for this week. I fully intend to work out every single day, seven days a  week no matter what. My head has cleared, my love still love, and my dreams of happiness and health for my family and friends larger than life. Laughter and screaming resulted in someone shrieking out, "HEY! DON'T MAKE FUN OF ALBERT FINNEY!" I have NO idea what that was about, but the laughter lasted well into the night.

    50  Have a lovely and important weekend. I hear loud laughter in the house right now, almost tearful. Is there anything more lovely? Ah, the sun will indeed, come out. Get some sleep, willya?

    51  Live life.

    52  Love life.

    51  Peace.

    ~H~

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    I am better now. Word of honor. I am better now.

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    The Daily News
     
    1  I am forever grateful for the curing power of sleep. Without question, it is the greatest cure for depression ever invented. If only people would listen.
     
    2   Yesterday disappeared like a grey sky. Not a bad thing at all, because yesterday was among the toughest days I've had this year. A troubled mind drave me not to sleep on Tuesday night, and all day long it was all I could do not to have a nervous breakdown. Everything seemed dark and depressing.
     
    3   For whatever reason I was exhausted and depressed beyond belief. Fortunately, I am well aware that the two go hand in hand, and that in most cases, depression is the result of poor sleeping habits.
     
    4   I am therefore forever grateful for the invention of the simple nap!
     
    5   For the first time all year I dragged myself to school and barely made it through the day. I was shaky and tired from an entire night of disturbing thoughts and worry.
     
    6   What's interesting is that I learned a LONG time ago that if you wake up in the middle of the night and can't get back to sleep, you need simply to repeat LOUDLY in your own head one word: sleep.
     
    7   I realized way back then that you can't solve any of life's woes in the middle of the night, and that you may totally ruin the next day, and even the next if you don't get a good night's sleep.
     
    8   I also learned a long time ago that you can't control things that you can't control, so it is always best to smile and move ahead, and to put depressing thoughts or concepts instantly behind. Very healthy attitude.
     
    9   And that there are people who will either let you down, or who will not behave the way YOU would want them to. Hey, get a helmet. Let others live, and keep your focus on your own personal happiness and health.
     
    10  How much of our lives are frittered away with trying to live other peoples' lives? More than you'll ever imagine. We all have family, friends, lovers, kids, acquaintances, and fancy dancers, all of whom move in and out of our lives. I'm a bit of a worrier, and I tend to worry about nearly everyone, which isn't always a wise thing to do.
     
    11  When you love lots of people, you also take their lives into your thoughts, and hope they will be okay and all right. Often you watch them make major life blunders and idiotic decisions, and you want like crazy to reach out and lend a hand.
     
    12  It is usually better to back off and let them learn on their own, and simply to smile and be a supportive person.
     
    13  That's not always easy when you worry about so many. I think two days ago I worried and worried and worried about people before I realized that a) they either don't know or don't care that I'm deeply worried, or b) it is best to be there for them silently.
     
    14  Especially old or young people, both categories of which do some pretty addlebrained things. Young people do things so addlebrained that it defies all rules of logic, while the elderly sometimes are either stubborn, or have themselves gone into a childish mode. Either way, it is heartbreaking to those of us who are worriers.
     
    15  Normally I am wise enough to keep silent, and to respect other peoples' follies as a part of their own learning and growth as people, and to simply be there when things fall apart, as often they do. I'm also there to celebrate when grand dreams come true.
     
    16  Sometimes I try to step in when I see obvious idiocy. This is rarely a good move, unless someone is doing something so self-destructive as to demand intervention.
     
    17  The introduction of drugs, or clearly self-destructive behaviors should sometimes be confronted, whether the people wish for you to do so or not. Steering people away from unhealthy relationships is a cat on a fence, but also sometimes should involve intervention. Watching poor lifestyle changes, while tempting, should probably be avoided in terms of instant intervention.
     
    18  It's a thin line, no matter what it is. Usually, a wise sentence works best. Having someone give what you have said a bit of thought, only to come back and say with a smile, "You're right. I was being pretty dumb." can be rewarding, since you usually want what's best for those you care about.
     
    19  But it is, as stated, a thin line, and knowing right when to back off can be an art.
     
    20  When a lot of people are suddenly going through a lot of tough things, it becomes stressful, and can keep a person up all night with worry.
     
    21  I think that's what happened to me on Tuesday night. It was a perfect storm of massive worry. I wasn't too concerned about myself, but of a bunch of others. Each one ran through my mind for minutes at a time, almost like a life flash of my concerns and love for friends and family.
     
    22  The cryptic DN of yesterday reflected this, and looked a bit like madness caught buzzing in a jar.
     
    23  As me old friend and confidant Kurt Vonnegut, Jr. put it so eloquently in his classic book, "I am better now. Word of honor. I am better now."
     
    24  Moving on: Enough of that folderol. It is truly a waste of precious time, which most people do on a daily basis.
     
    25   I notice in all of this that the Yankees won the World Series.
     
    26   So it goes.
     
    27   Moving on, Part the Second:  Blogging causes insomnia. I don't consider myself a "blogger" mainly because I consider myself among the first amateurs ever to make an idiot of himself publicly by posting the first DN in 1996.
     
    28   The DN is ensconsed in useless history, beginning in the hallowed halls of the YB Performing Arts department all those years ago. We needed some kind of communication to take place when we took on the enormous Guys and Dolls, and given the amazing climate of the times, I hopped on board and invented this playfully articulate nonsense.
     
    29  Two days in a row I used both the nine of clubs AND the word "ensconsed".
     
    30  AnywayZ I'm up again at 3 a.m. dealing with a rested this time bout of insomnia, only a much nicer dose than I had the night before last, when I was hit with what was undoubtedly a head full of demons, and anguish the likes of which I haven't suffered in years.
     
    31  Moving on, Part the Third: It was a deep date with madness, and I'm glad to see that it was a mere anomaly.
     
    32   We all have them, but when you publicly put yourself out there every day, sometimes people are going to see it.
     
    33   So it goes.
     
    34   Moving on, Part Four: That was an esc button with a quickness!  Well, yesterday me old friend and confidant Jeff Love sent me an e-mail that pointed out the nine of clubs I found on a sidewalk the other night. He said that the spades formed an "H", which I thought was rather cool. Have a look:
     
                                                                                      
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    35   I thought it was rather quaint. A lot of Heidi stuff has gone down in the past week, so when I found the nine, I KNEW it would have some kind of follow-up. When I saw the Starry Night backdrop on So You Think You Can Dance, I mentioned it in yesterday's DN. Everything from then turned crazy and exhausting. But Jeff's e-mail helped turn it around.
     
    36  By the way, when I tried to center the picture of the nine of clubs just now, Xanga refused to allow me to left-justify the rest of today's DN. I had to try to center it by hand, no reason, just weird.
     
    37  I didn't mind, because in a way, it tucked it all in snugly, and I am back to me old droll and waggish self.
     
    38  I must say it feels fun once more.
     
    39  So indeed, while others may still be struggling despite any nonsensical musings from me, I have managed to turn it around in one quick evening.
     
    40  So last night was a good sort of insomnia, a cosmic turnaround of sorts. And yes.
     
    41   I am better now.
     
    42   Word of honor.
     
    43   I am better now.
     
    44   Peace.
     
                                                                                                                        ~H~
     
     
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    A verily cryptic and mysterious Daily News the first part of which is in Comic Sans, which is a cryptic rearranging of Common Sense.

    The Daily News

    1  Ever just feel liberated?  Felt that way instantly last night when I got home.
     
    2  Sometimes it takes something like a volleyball game, or some guy acting like an idiot to make you realize that you have it all over a lot of others.
     
    3   I didn't intend for that to insult anyone, but really, just groups of people.
     
    4   I have returned!
     
    5   Ever have something start one way, reverse field on you, turn your time around, and end up giving you a life lesson?
     
    6   That clearly never happened to ME last night.
     
    7   Haha!
     
    8    So riddle me this: how does one go from some emo boushit to suddenly donning a practical crown without anything really significant happening except doing a little creative listening?
     
    9   One nice thing about getting older is that despite the cliche', you ABSOLUTELY become wiser. The reason you do is that once you been there, you can make faster and more intelligent choices. When you're younger, you have still to trip over your own foolishness. Old wins that one, and we don't win too much, lemme tellya.
     
    10  In SO many ways, I'm counting blessings this night.
     
    11  I was about to say something RIDICULOUSLY stupid last night when I found a nine of clubs on the sidewalk. I screened it, and am forever grateful for the screening. 
     
    12  Moving on:  Do you like So You Think You Can Dance as much as I?  This year isn't as good as some year's past, but it's early, and I LOVE it.
     
    13  Here are a couple of cool dance quotes, the first one of which comes to us from my beautiful daughter Caitlin, who could only say that this was from a friend's shirt, and I absolutely drink it like the proverbial cocktail. The shirt said this:
     
                              "If dance were any easier, it would be football."
     
    14  Ah, Performing Arts. Shawna, Ponch and I LOVED any quotes that would give coolness to our collective efforts. I distinctly recall this wonderful t-shirt, which pronounced quite proudly:
     
                                    "Life is hard. Then you dance."
     
    15  Adam Shankman's fall last night on So You Think You Can Dance articulated everything that sould be said about dance.
     
    16  Moving on, Part the Second: Just want our DN dailies to get what goes on each night, on a nightly basis. Sometimes I can figure and follow famously, and still other nights cause the antidote to insomnia.
     
    17   Yeesh.
     
    18   I saw more tonight than anything that could reverse the world. And to those involved, it looked perfectly normal.
     
    19   That item works either for or against so many, on so many levels. Maybe they will read this and "get it", but I'm thinkin' not.
     
    20   Some people must first deal with the Great Stupidity (hereverahfter deemed simply the "GS". . .)
     
    21   It's not a far cry from "BS" only much more clandestine.
     
    22   My research is done. I can see that idiocy and moronic behavior still steer things beyond what most can see.
     
    23   On "So You Think You Can Dance" it suddenly switched to Van Gogh, and a bit about Starry Night. I found a nine of clubs out on the streets last night, and right now, as we speak, So You Think You Can Dance has dancers dancing in front of a huge drop of...Starry Night. I listen to things like that. Others don't. Well, fine.
     
    24   So yes. I must be an idiot, and YOU have the right ideas.
     
    25   Tell me.
     
    26    I love you lol.
     
    27    So....do you "get it"?
     
    28    Love all y'all,
     
    29    I haven't much more to say except that life is for learning.
     
    30    I almost feel I finally learned.
     
    31    I'll see ya tomorrow; enough learning for one night. I deserve a degree for how much I did learn last night.
     
    32    See ya soon. Love you.
     
    33    Peace.


    ~H~



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    Missing Persons
     
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    1    Sometimes, I tellya.

    2    Ever just feel that way?

    3    I'm never sure exactly what causes it, but sometimes, I tellya.

    4    You just shake your head.

    5    Do you ever miss people? I sure do.

    6    That's a tough thing when you do. You don't have much to say about it, so yeah.

     

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    7     I've been in a missing people phase this past few weeks. I miss my Mom. I miss my Dad, even though I spent time with him on Sunday, and I will be accompanying him to the Niner game on Sunday.

    8     I miss lots of people, and it sometimes even manages to interfere with my daily life. I miss people a lot sometimes.

                              

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    9     I know that we must always move forward, and have utterly no concern with that. It's just that every now and again I miss someone who just gradually slipped out of my life. It's always someone different, but it stops you, ya know?

    10   When I was younger I woulda blown this off as strictly "emo". I don't know about that anymore.

    11    As I have gotten older and have seen how short life is, I miss lots of great friends and family. We take people SO for granted, you know?

    12   It's sort of like we suddenly stop our lives and look around, and see all of our new surroundings, and our new lives, and our new friends, and that's as healthy as it gets.

    13   And yet, every now and again we look up and remember others, and how we got here and all. And we all have SO many wonderful people whose smiles and thoughts have brought us strength and fulfillment through the years.

    14   Like, don't get me wrong. I LOVE my new job, my new school, and the entire direction my life is taking right now. And I have friends galore, as well as strong ties to my entire family and circle of friends.

    15   But I see other people who have been amazing in my life simply begin to disappear, often with them not even noticing their own gradual evanescence. I can recognize it, and often have little to say as they move to other areas and far away from my own existence.

    16  There are, indeed, places I remember, all my life.

    17   I've lost too many people in too short a time the past few years, so I imagine that it would make sense I would suddenly have a moment where I just want to tell everyone that ever meant anything to me that I love them all. Life doesn't always allow us to be that sincere, and yet we all have those moments.

    18   Added to that are the people who I've almost lost. Too many people in the past few years have suddenly fallen into ill health, or maybe have even left us. Others, including myself, have had tremendously scary bouts with accidents, illnesses, or other things that put their own lives in perspective. Some even looked me up after major crises and we've re-invented our relationships.

    19   Sorry that I'm going so deep, but I'm just going through an evening where I realize how blessed I have been to have gotten to know so many absolutely amazing people.

    20   I've simply reached a point in life where I take nothing for granted, and want to shout out to all the beautiful people who have walked into my life that I truly appreciate and love every moment. As recently as three years ago I probably wouldn't have thrown such a sentiment out there.

    21   But the past two years have thrown a great many tests my way, and I now take nothing for granted.

    22   And I guess last night I just missed people. A whole bunch.

    23   I miss all of you. Even people I see every day I miss when I'm at work, or away.

    24   Most of you. Okay, so I could do without a couple of chowderheads, but other than that, I miss a whole bunch of you.

    25    Thank goodness our daily lives keep us busy enough not to have too many of these moments, but it's also important to salute the people who have loved and inspired our lives. There are so many, and you are certainly huge in my life, whether I've been able to stay in touch or not, or really, to say it or not.

    26   I'll get over it by morning, but do me a favor? Tell someone you love them today. I wrote this last night in a rare weak moment. It'll never happen again, word of honor. It's just that last night I put down my shield. It's allowed. That's what knights do.  

    27   That's about it. Just throwing out some sentiments that I'm guessing we all have.

    28   Thank you to everyone who ever made a difference. That would be nearly everybody. You're all amazing, all of you. You are knighted. And ladied lol.

    29   Thanks, and let's move on, but not apart.

    30    And here's a thought to everyone I've ever laughed with, cried with, danced with, or loved with all my heart:  it was real.

    31    I'll be thinking of you all today.

    32    Peace.
                                                                                                                                             

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    1   Mondays are underrated.

    2   The idea of Mondays is to fly low. NOBODY wants to be doing what they have to do on Mondays, so it's perhaps our most unchallenged of weekdays.

    3   I'll go to my grave declaring Mondays as things not to be intimidating.

    4   It's Tuesdays that hurt. We go in on Mondays armed and ready that they are Mondays, and will be days to try to fly through, and we usually manage to fly low and get home safely.

    5   Tuesdays, on the other hand, are fanged, drooling, and dangerous, rattlesnakes in the weeds lying low, ready to strike.

    6   I find that we are dangerously unarmed and unready for Tuesdays, and have lobbied for years to have Tuesday eliminated as a Day of the Week.

    7   Think about it. If Tuesdays were wiped off the map of the world, we would go straight from Mondays to Wednesdays, perhaps our most productive days. By Wednesday, we start to realize the upcoming weekend. We're a  bit more lubed and ready to roll on Wednesdays.

    8   Wednesday even has a handle: "Hump Day", meaning of course that we are getting over the hump in the middle of the week.

    9   I'll take the high road on that one, just to show a modicum of character.

    10 Thursdays develop naturally, since they are the day before the official beginning of the weekend.

    11  Well I don't know about any of you, but when I was in college, Thursdays were the unofficial beginning of the weekend. Thursday nights were always goof nights since Friday classes were just things we either walked through, or which we had to dread due to some horrendous exam for which we had already studied all week, well, at least a scholar of my degree certainly did.



    12  You believe that and I have a bridge to sell you.

    13   Anyway, the elimination of Tuesday would do much to improve our work/school/life week. Oh, there are those who were BORN on a Tuesday who would think that the elimination of Tuesdays would make them no longer "full of grace", but really, that's nonsense, since Tuesdays existed when they were born; therefore, they shall ALWAYS remain full of grace.

    14  Anyway, those are my thoughts on how to improve the week. Personally I think it makes utmost sense. I also think we should take noon to 2:30 and declare it our lunch hour, like most of the rest of the world. I think we would get much more productivity from people if we treated them as human beings instead of as some sort of cog that controls the bottom line. I have a stretch each day from 11:30-1 and it works wonders.

    15  Maybe we could write our elected officials and start a Let's-Stop-Being-So-Stupid Movement, dedicated to the proposition that work/school/life should not be spent worrying and fretting about things unrelated to our personal lives.

    16  I spent all day yesterday with my Dad, and decided that everything else in life could be put on hold. I got home and never felt more refreshed and ready to live.

    17  Somehow the rest of the world seems to get it, but in America, we have decided that everybody should dread work and look consistently at the clock for the day to end, and for the weekend to arrive, our lives constantly at the mercy of the hands of time.



    18  A couple of simple switches would probably  make work much more tolerable and would most certainly increase productivity. We've become brainwashed that our lives should sell our souls to the company store.

    19  Ah...nope.

    20  Moving on: Every now and again I'll throw Tuesday over my shoulder, just because it's an interesting concept. Take none of it seriously, because you should never take a thing I have to say seriously.

    21  Moving on, Part the Second: Like the moon last night? Microscopic Moon. Bright. Cool.

    22  Moving on, Part the Third:  Daylight Saving Time didn't fool me or my clocks when it occurred. It did when I got home from my Dad's. I thought it was seven o' clock, but it was indeed six o' clock. It sort of evened things out because I had originally awakened at what I thought was 4 a.m. but was actually 5 a.m. because the clocks had already changed. It's always an adjustment, another thing I'll never really understand, but I guess it's just one of those life's pitches that hurls itself at us before we even have the bat off our shoulders.

    23  DST is one of THE most useless things ever invented, but which we accept, sorta like Tuesdays, and the mumps.

    24   AnywayZ, that's about all for a Monday. I promise you there will be a Tuesday DN, despite my idiotic sentiments. Great ideas, but we won't see any of them happen in our lifetime.

    25   Meanwhile, fly low, and take care of you. Everything else can wait. Sneak Monday past everybody. You always have Tuesday to get annoyed and frazzled. Live life today. And love life today.

    26   Peace.



    ~H~




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