The Daily News
1 Bang, zoom. Xanga readers, take heed. I don't know why my Xanga DN is working like a ticker-tape, traveling all the way across the page, but I'm trying to figure out which button or gizmo I need to push in order to right it.
2 I wish I could always report that everything is hunky-dory around here, but once in a while, tensions mount, and we have pressure before deadlines. That happened at rehearsal yesterday. I just had been a bit frustrated that people seemed to be lagging, and had some words with the cast. I wound up walking out of the rehearsal. I literally got shaken, like vibrating shaken, and needed to get away from the place.
3 It isn't rare at all that when it gets close to show time, tensions sometimes mount. I can't help feeling that one or two of us had tensions anyway. Hopefully, we could all re-group, shake it off, and move forward. Very rare that it would go to the lengths it did yesterday, but as I said, it is probably more than just the Show.
4 That happens sometimes in Theatre. People think it's easy, but it is a REAL pressure cooker right before showtime. Fortunately, this Cast has a lot of character.
5 After I left, the Cast pulled together. They realized a universal Truth about show business: the Show must go on. The Show is bigger than each individual part, or each indidual's needs, and that includes the director.
6 When I got home, I collapsed from total exhaustion.
7 Fortunately for me, my daughters were visiting, and we wound up laughing, singing, and dancing in my living room, just like the old days. I was able to relax, re-group, and realize that I need to bounce back instantly with as much a flourish as one could muster. All things considered, I believe I was able to do that.
8 Of course, any time there is tension, it takes time to make things right. I intend to take care of that today, as soon as possible, beginning with an apology to the entire cast for first losing my temper, then for walking away from the rehearsal without any loud announcement.
9 I had intended to go back, but I ALWAYS go back in, and this time, I let it continue. It was a gamble, I will admit. I gambled the entire first weekend that the Cast and Crew of this Show actually had enough character to go forth with the rehearsal, make adjustments, and be heroes for me. The thing about this Show is that the Cast and Crew and entire Company has gotten along really well throughout. Sometimes kids might get frustrated here or there, but there was definitely a nice bond on this Show, and yesterday was just stress.
10 The Company came through. They rehearsed the entire Show without me, and my reports from Jose are that it was a wake-up call, and everyone was more alert and focused, which was what I needed to begin with. They had been doing fine, but seemed distant and unfocused on the reality that there is an opening night on Friday night. THAT was the reason I originally began some butt-kicking that was clearly needed.
11 So it looks like all systems go, hopefully no hard feelings; I was able to pull away from it all and get some perspective, and things righted themselves.
12 I gambled, and hopefully, this time, won. And when I win, the Show wins. I may need to make a few adjustments today, but if my reports were good, then we should open not only on time, but with a unified, bonded group. Jose said that the kids actually got WAY closer.
13 Well, I hate to point to sports all the time, but many Championship teams have won when there are words in the clubhouse. Quite often, it's because EVERYONE wants the Championship, and they realize that the TEAM is more important than any individuals, including the coaches.
14 Lesson learned.
15 Go to the play; it is really good, and funny, and sad, and soulful.
16 Opening night is TOMORROW night, not tonight, at 8.
17 And to my wonderful Company of A Love Letter, I love all you guys. You've all worked hard and put your hearts into this project. Now let's take it home.
18 Peace.

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